A friend commented the other day that I must be relieved to be done with school. I am. The next comment was something about all the free time I should have since I'm done. In theory, I should have tons of free time. No studying or writing papers. Three teenagers that pretty much take care of themselves, except when they need a ride somewhere or a bit of cash. The summer has been super busy, though, and I've been busy. I can't tell you what I've done or where the time has gone because I have not accomplished anything worthwhile. The only thing routine right now is that I wash towels every stinking day. The beach towels from the pool that is because one, apparently, cannot go outside to the pool and use a towel more than once. Really, that's enough about that.
I'm not sleeping either. Please, please, somebody send me a remedy for the hot flashes! Girls, I am in desperate need...
I want so much to hear God's voice. We've some big decisions to make and I don't want to mess up. The kids, the dog (who is chewing on everything these days), and the reality of life are so distracting. So, I'm going to the mountains and I'm going to sit on the back porch of the cabin and I'm going to wait, to listen, to be still.
Check out this verse from Habakkuk -- "I will stand on my guard post and station myself on the rampart; and I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, and how I may reply when I am reproved." (2:1)
I don't know about you, but sometimes I have my prayer time then jump up and head on to the next thing. The reason I am not hearing God's voice is because I am simply not slowing down enough to listen. Habakkuk had some serious questions he was asking of God. The answers were not what he expected. But at the end of the book, Habakkuk realized that no matter what, no matter what life's circumstances were, God was worthy to be praised. I love that.
"Yet I will exult in the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds' feet, and makes me walk on my high places." (3:18-19)
Yet, I will praise Him,